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America, A Nation of Fluffy Special Snowflakes

I was talking to British and German friends yesterday who asked me about a fellow American we used to be friends with. They haven’t seen him in a while after they told him to stop with the ranting on the presidential elections, his disagreement at Trump’s win for Presidency, his complaints about how unfairly him and his rainbow friends were being treated in the country, and his general dissatisfaction with his own life through blaming others for his circumstance and state. I haven’t talked to him since I was a Christian and he’d constantly bait me with religious memes and specifically tag me to ask for my opinion on controversial religious things which he could then point out in his favor of why God gives the holy approval for him to deliberately continue sinning against God. He was not good for my stress level and I’ve let him go as a friend long ago.

“I really think the bloke would do you lot some good,” said a British friend referring to President Trump. And I agreed. He would also do good for the international community.

Britain has always been the strongest ally of the United States. Unfortunately for the Brits, that connection means that if there’s some war hungry asshole as President who goes to war, the Brits would have to go to war too in support of the United States of America. And that kind of behavior from a President can lead to strained relationships especially when other countries have no problems with the countries we’re trying to make up lies about to invade or countries whose governments we’re rebelling against and trying to overthrow.

I reminded my friend of this. Trump would be better for international relations as he’s looking to connect to the international community in peace and friendship instead of a fucking egotistical dictator of the world, which we’ve been as a country to the entire world many times in the past. The entire Middle East is a breeding zone for islamic terrorists because we’re assholes and we’ve destroyed their countries, we created the islamic terrorists we’re now fighting against, and we’ve dismantled any sense of peace that region has with our constant bullshit meddling. Trump has a lot to clean up from previous presidents, but I believe he will clean up this mess we created and it starts with getting the fuck out of other countries and their businesses and how their governments are running. We have no business meddling in the affairs of others.

So even people in other countries thinks Trump is a good change for America. But yet, we have all this division in America. There’s more hate groups popping up now than ever before under the disguise of “love and peace” while they preach destruction and death and treason. What in the hell is wrong with America?

What’s wrong with us is that we are a generation of fucking idiots. And since stupid catches on like fire, the disgusting cesspool of filth also sucks in older generations who were taught better and who should know how to behave better. America and Americans have become a disgrace.

We are a nation of fools committed to our foolishness whose false sense of intelligence is so fucking roundabout that we somehow believe 8+5=10.

We are a nation of special snowflakes who cry and bitch and moan and then throw temper tantrums like five year olds because we don’t get our way in everything.

We are a nation of people like the guy my friends and I talked about, someone who lives in America, has a roof over their head, has a job, can afford all the brightly colored wigs he wears and the expensive makeup to cake his face in layers to look like a girl, who has clean water and working bathrooms, who uses the internet and makes phone calls, who eats well even and has help from friends and family if needed, someone who can be mean as fuck and disrespect other people and their beliefs, who baits people on purpose to arguments, who bullies others when they don’t agree with him, and yet still moans about how his life is such a fucking tragedy because of everyone else always discriminating against him when he’s not in fucking girl costume and other people don’t even know he dresses in drag because he hides it like a shameful skeleton in his closet.

We are a nation of fucking assholes who blatantly fucks people over and then cries like a pathetic kicked puppy when someone “hurts our feelings”.

I fucking hate people, more so now than before, not because of their skin color or what the fuck is in between their legs, but because they are fucking stupid and they behave in fucking stupid ways. People in America can’t get their heads out of their asses long enough to realize they’re not the fluffy special snowflakes they believe they are. There is no way I will ever condone this fucking mass hysteria trending snowflake syndrome bullshit. There is also no way I will ever fucking respect any of these people whose sole intentions are to hurt others through violence, through coercion, through any means necessary so they can pat themselves on the back for a job well done at becoming the scum of humanity under the disguise of peace and love. Fuck them and fuck their lies.

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Posted by on January 22, 2017 in Uncategorized

 

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The Great Love Affair That Never Was

When my friend says that she hates to see me lose my connection to Jesus…

I’ve never been very good at lying with important things.

I wish I still had the stupid optimism that God cared and that somewhere, somehow, he was working it all out for me for my good like the Bible says. I can paraphrase scripture quite well, but to feel God’s presence, I haven’t felt it in a long while now and I wonder if I’ve ever felt it in the first place. Maybe I was just delusional in my love for God, except now, I don’t think it matters anymore.

I used to miss Him so much. I used to love Him so much also. God was everything for me for a while. I couldn’t wait to finish this life just so I could be in His presence. I thought God would save me. I thought that in all the religions in all the world, if everyone was so against God, then there must really be a God and they’re all afraid of Him. He must be the only real thing. And I believed. I didn’t believe Jesus to begin with, but if Jesus was God and I believed in God, then I believed in Jesus as well too as Jesus was and is God. And so I stuck with it. I found something that filled the empty hole in my heart, that plugged up the yearning I had for something more, for a life with meaning and purpose.

I had always been involved with the supernatural and with magic, no matter how much I avoided it or tried to ignore it. It was a recurring theme in my life from childhood and even now. Now, I hardly do anything magical. I simply have bad dreams, give no more thoughts to them, and keep moving. God didn’t take away my bad dreams, even after I got baptized. Things in my dreams would taunt me and hurt me because I was so in love with God and Jesus. It would be worse. It didn’t get better. And demons didn’t flee at the name of Jesus. It made me wonder if I even had the right Jesus and not some guy named Jesus (Hey-Seuss). The only change that came from me giving my life to God was that I didn’t feel the emptiness in my heart anymore. I feel it now. I just ignore it. That emptiness, that hopelessness, yeah, it’s all there again.

I lost my faith in God after realizing one day that God didn’t love me. He didn’t want heathens and people who converted. We weren’t his first choice. We were never his choice. We were only a substitute for the Jews that He loved, the Jews that He tried to provoke to jealousy through giving us some of His great love. We were just an afterthought. And if the Jews weren’t such stuck up and self centered jerks, if they loved God like how He loved them, then none of us, no one would’ve been saved. We are at best, second in God’s great love, and at worst, we are just a tool to be used and manipulated by God to create what He wanted. I had no answers. God gave me no answers. And thus, I spiraled downward, wanting to know why I wasn’t as loved as I thought I was, or worse, why I wasn’t even loved at all.

Rachel, the girl with the tattoos who came with her mother and her mother got sent away, the one I called my best friend at one time and the one who calls herself Zim…I thought God wanted me to be nice to them and take care of them. And because I’m a horrible person, I told them that. I told them that I was only good to them because God wanted me to be. And I believed that. I couldn’t stand either mom or daughter, yet, I grew to love Zim because she reminded me so much of my idiotic wayward goth and rebellious little sister that I left behind. The were about the same age. I loved Zim like my sister. Sure, I was possessive, but there has never once been an instance in my entire life where I wanted to be gay. Never ever. And her mom got put in the shu and she would go out every day and yell for her mom. And every day, I would pray to God that she didn’t get caught so she didn’t end up in the shu either. And no matter how long Zim stayed at the window of the shu, talking to her mom, she never got caught. I was happy my prayers worked. And then one day, I said something to Zim that I didn’t even realize the truth of. I told her that if every prayer I prayed was answered by God, then it probably wasn’t God who answered my prayers. It was probably something else. And that’s the truth of it. I don’t think God was anywhere at all. It was something else pretending to be God for me. Something else wanting me to be foolishly and blindly follow in the name of god’s will when it was never God to begin with.

And isn’t that the story of men? We follow the will of God and commit atrocities. Through blind faith and vigilance, we killed and slaughtered and pillaged and burned and crucified and hurt. Perhaps it was never God that spoke to any of us at all, for I am reminded of one truth from the Bible, “This world belongs to him, the prince of the air, for he is the prince of this world”. The devil is the prince of this world and he owns it, therefore, until Jesus comes back to take this world after the tribulation, we are all servants of the devil.

I used to like the occult. All that stuff: magic, tarot cards, spirits, the dead, demons, visions, the future, etc, etc, I used to be interested in it and I used to search for it. I used go to psychics for readings and was the jerk who read them and told them they abused whatever ability they had so I was going to take it. I was the jerk who would mess with psychics hours on end just to laugh at them because there was nothing that anyone could tell me that I didn’t already know about my own future. Only idiots allowed other people, not very good ones at that, to determine their fates. Me? I decided my own fate always. I was the jerk that witches pleaded with to leave them alone because they were afraid of me. I was the jerk who pulled demons out of little kids and stuck them inside the flesh and blood vessels of others who had at least some 25 years left to their short lifespan.

I was a horrible jerk all around and I didn’t care because there wasn’t a meaning to life and none of this mattered. Invisible worlds. Invisible things. Stupid people who thought I could control the elements and worse, control demons—none of that mattered. It didn’t give me meaning to life. It didn’t tell me why in the world I was stuck here carrying around this slowly decaying carcass of rot. It didn’t kill me any faster.

God made it mattered once. Once long ago when I loved Him. And I resent Him for that glimmer of hope, for that idiotic vision of something holy and wonderful. My curse words have gone from fuck to Jesus Christ. It’s blasphemous, I’m sure, but it’s not intentional. It wasn’t as if I hated God enough that I started replacing my curse words with the name of Christ. Maybe on the inside, I hated God enough that I started replacing my curse words with the name Christ. It’s been a recurrent habit I need to break since hating God would waste too much energy spent for nothing. It only started after God and I had a misunderstanding and His silence isn’t an acceptable answer. Of course, I’m not entitled for an answer, and I used to get upset about that, but I don’t really care anymore. An answer. No answer. Silence. It’s all the same thing. Just the shadow of a supposedly loving God being His lovingly self.

Going back on topic to magic and the occult and the supernatural and tarot and such things, I used to care for them. I used to seek power. I used to crave knowledge. Now? I’m old. I’ve retired. I don’t care if the world ends today or if demons appear. I don’t care if I live or if I die. I don’t make a difference. I’m weary of this place. I’m even more weary of the other places, places I used to go hide and play in because this place is more annoying than having to sit through an opera of fat singers whose voices can shatter my ear drums. I have great disdain for this world and for all in it. It’s similar to a boil that festers and bubbles and hurts and pops with disgusting yellow green pus that smells like week old fish and boiled eggs soaking up the sun’s rays in the middle of a heap of reeking trash decomposing on the back of an overcrowded boat somewhere very close to the equator on summer solstice, the longest and hottest day of the year. I don’t care for magic and such frivolous shiny things anymore.

I’m not interested in dying gods on dying worlds saved by traveling mortal men (Angelus). Nor am I interested in horned gods who pretty much violate and rape unsuspecting and unwilling women and call that a tribute worthy of a favor (Ceros). I’m not interested in sacrificing virgins (as if such a thing even exists outside of very young children or infants). I’m not interested in the power plays of summer and winter courts (the faes). I’m not interested in blue wolves (Shaar) or demons (Az and Yaar and others). I’m not interested in pulling demons from people (too many idiots to name). I’m not interested in the others (the green eyed monster, etc) and I’m definitely not interested in my dreams anymore or why I have them (I’m looking at you, Death, and the various many ways I suffer and die in the dream world). I’m not even really interested in zombies nor vampires nor dragons and unicorns. There’s only one thing I’m interested in and it has nothing to do with magic or the occult or religion or spirituality at all. And that is a very long road ahead.

The love I had for God, of wanting to be the perfect Christian, the perfect wife, the perfect sexless humanoid angelic like being in the afterlife and whatever other things I believed in, it was all delusion. I am happy for people who believe in such things and I wish them all the best with whatever prayers I still have left in me to pray with, but it’s not for me anymore. Christianity was never meant to be for me. I tried it. It fit perfectly. And then I came out worse for wear because of it. I became someone else I wasn’t. I became this unblemished image of something so unattainable that the higher I climbed to reach it, the farther I fell, and the harder I hit the ground. The more broken I became. No one fixed me. I had to either fix myself or simply break to pieces.

I am not miserable. Rather, I am old and weary and I don’t care for the vapidness of this world or this place or this journey we call life or what comes after it or whatever happens to any other life that exists outside of my own since we’re all in the same boat anyhow. My bones creak. My mind is fraying at the edges. My heart is bleeding dry. I am tired. I don’t understand how many people can’t seem to understand that. They think I hate the world because I’m miserable. No, I hate the world because it’s full of stupid people and I don’t have the patience to deal with anyone’s stupidity or butt hurt feelings. I’m perfectly fine in my feebleness. Everyone else is helter skelter.

I don’t think God is for me. We will see. I don’t expect anything. Expecting things just makes you disappointed when things you hope for don’t happen.

 
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Posted by on December 28, 2016 in Uncategorized

 

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Why People Choose to Believe in the False Rape Lawsuit Against Trump and Why People Choose to Ignore Hillary Clinton’s Successful Defense of a Rapist in the Rape Case of Kathy Shelton

This election year has been insane, no doubt about it. I’m just ready for it to be over so we can all start dealing with the aftermath of whoever wins, but until then, I came across an OccupyDemocrats video on a friend’s Facebook post speaking about the rape lawsuit filed against Donald Trump. I looked it up myself, first Snopes (http://www.snopes.com/2016/06/23/donald-trump-rape-lawsuit/), the California lawsuit filed in April 2016 (https://www.scribd.com/doc/310835987/Donald-Trump-Lawsuit), and the New York based lawsuit filed by the same person in June 2016 (https://www.scribd.com/doc/316341058/Donald-Trump-Jeffrey-Epstein-Rape-Lawsuit-and-Affidavits) which was then voluntarily dismissed by the plaintiff in September 2016 (https://www.scribd.com/document/324233182/Jane-Doe-v-Donald-J-Trump-and-Jeffrey-E-Epstein), only to be filed AGAIN in September 2016 for a third lawsuit.This is such a huge mess, here’s the docket from both those New York lawsuits.

June 2016 Lawsuit Docket, Voluntarily Dismissed

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September 2016 Docket, Still Pending

docket2

(James Cheney Mason was co-counsel for Casey Anthony in 2011.)

Here’s more court docs: the California in forma pauperis filing (https://www.scribd.com/doc/310836504/Katie-Johnson-Trump-Lawsuit), the New York amended complaint, the second docket filed September 2016 (https://www.scribd.com/document/326057027/Amended-Complaint-Filed-9-30-2016), the Jane Doe declaration as filed in June 2016 (https://www.scribd.com/document/326057168/Jane-Doe-Declaration-as-Filed), the Tiffany Doe declaration as filed in June 2016 (https://www.scribd.com/document/326057237/Tiffany-Doe-Declaration), and the Voluntary dismissal of Jane Doe’s New York lawsuit in September 2016 (https://www.scribd.com/document/324233182/Jane-Doe-v-Donald-J-Trump-and-Jeffrey-E-Epstein).

Now, here are the facts and the confusing parts about them:

  1. Jane Doe was 13 years old in 1994.
  2. In summer of 1994, Jane Doe attended several parties hosted by Epstein in which Trump attended. Why she continued to attend these parties after the first sexual assault is beyond any victim who has been sexually assaulted.
  3. Jane Doe attended these parties on the promises of money and a modeling contract. Her main goal, despite the alleged sexual assaults and rapes and the sodomy that occurred on at least 4 separate occasions was money and a modeling contract. If she continued going to these parties where she experienced these so called horrible sexual things against her will…why did she keep attending? No one held a gun to her head and made her go. She attended out of her own free will because of her own greed and wanting a modeling career.
  4. Other underage girls were said to be in attendance of these parties for the same reason.
  5. Tiffany Doe had promised to pay Jane Doe for attending said parties, however, it’s unclear as to whether payment was made. It can only be assumed that payment was made as Jane Doe continued to attend these parties after the first occasion of where she claimed to be sexually assaulted by Trump.
  6. Tiffany Doe recruited Jane Doe to attended said parties.
  7. Jane Doe alleges that she was sexually assaulted and raped by Trump and Epstein on four and two separate occasions, respectively. It was said in the first court document that Jane Doe was sexually assaulted by Epstein on three occasions in which the third resulted in Epstein raping her.
  8. In the first court filing, Tiffany Doe was said to have witnessed or was made aware of three sexual assaults against Jane Doe by Epstein and would be testifying to that fact. However, in Tiffany Doe’s declaration, Tiffany Doe stated that she personally witnessed or was immediately made aware of two occasions in which Epstein had sexually abused Jane Doe.
  9. Both Jane Doe and Tiffany Doe alleges that a 12 year old Maria Doe was murdered by Trump and Epstein.
  10. Jane Doe’s June 2016 informa pauperis filing reveals that she has not held a job since 2008, in which she neither paid taxes and only made $200-$300 per month as a freelance model in 2008. This is a huge cause for concern. Here is someone who doesn’t seem to have any source of income and hasn’t been employed in over 8 years and lives in California. Yet, she is asking for $100,000,000 (one hundred million dollars) in damages for willingly attending said parties over the course of four months in summer of 1994 in which she alleges that she was sexually assaulted and raped against her will, of which parties she was promised and allegedly paid for attending and continued to attend. So here is someone who does not hold a job, has not held a job, more likely doesn’t even want to hold a job, yet is greedy, greedy enough to attend paid parties as a teenager where she alleges to have been a victim of sexual abuse but continues going to these parties because of money and because of wanting a modeling career.

There are many things wrong with this court case, or series of related court cases. The biggest thing is discrepancies and lies. Discrepancies such as the number of times Jane Doe had been sexually abused by Epstein. Lies included the address and phone number filed in court papers for Jane Doe in California which led to an abandoned property and the phone number went straight to voice mail. Lies also included the alleged conspiracy between Epstein and Trump concerning Jane Doe by making her their sex slave. Dictionary.com defines a sex slave as, “a person who is forced into prostitution and held against their will” (http://www.dictionary.com/browse/sex-slave). Jane Doe willingly attended paid parties over the course of several months in which she was never confined nor held prisoner against her will by either Epstein nor Trump. She was not a sex slave by any means and was never forced into prostitution. Through her own greed, she willingly took money in payment for attending such parties and giving sex. If she was ever sexually assaulted against her will, she would’ve immediately stopped attending such parties like any normal person who have encountered a traumatic event and distanced herself from Tiffany Doe, Epstein, Trump, and such places. Jane Doe admitted to attending at least four separate parties, at which ever time, she could have just stopped attending but she chose to go.

In 1994, Jane Doe, being only 13 years old, said she traveled to New York City, assuming from California, to pursue a modeling career. Jane Doe did not mention whether she was traveling alone or with a parent or guardian, but I find it incredibly hard to believe someone at that age traveled alone across a country without a job, a guardian, a place to stay, and money. So where were Jane Doe’s parents in all of this? Were they aware of their little girl attending parties or being gone for lengths of time away from them? This is pretty far fetched, that a parent would allow their child to travel across a country alone without any financial means nor means of getting around. Greyhound does not allow unaccompanied minors between ages 8-14 to travel alone on a trip longer than five hours (https://services.greyhound.com/en/ticketsandtravel/childrentraveling.aspx) along with other conditions that have to be met. So if Jane Doe traveled by bus to New York City in June 1994 alone, she would’ve have to only been living within a five hour radius which excludes California.

According to Jane Doe and Tiffany Doe, another minor, Maria Doe, was seen once and then disappeared, allegedly murdered by Epstein and Trump and used at a later date to force Jane Doe into another sexual assault at another party which Jane Doe keeps attending willingly. It’s hard to believe that Trump has killed anyone, because he hasn’t. He has never made anyone disappear nor has anyone in his present company disappeared, nor have any witnesses testifying against him in various lawsuits and scandals have mysteriously committed suicide and the whole lot, unlike Hillary Clinton who has an entire list of dead bodies to account for. To allege that Trump has killed a 12 year old child, it’s interesting to wonder why there isn’t a missing child report on this 12 year old Maria Doe or why Trump and Epstein didn’t just kill Jane Doe when they were done with her. It’s interesting why they just didn’t kill her now. It would make sense that she’s still alive, if she even existed in the first place, because they’re not killers and they never have been. If Maria Doe was 12 in 1994 and mysteriously vanished as alleged, someone would’ve reported her missing. In 1994, Missingkids.com reported 7 cases of children missing from June 1994 to December 1994 (http://www.missingkids.com/search), none of them the correct age for a Maria Doe and none of them missing around the correct time.

Tiffany Doe, allegedly employed by Epstein for over ten years as a party planner, in which one of which her duties included trafficking young girls to his alleged sex parties, is not a reliable witness. Tiffany Doe, according to her own declaration, is at best someone who entices and pays young girls to attend parties where sexual activities occur, or at worst, is a sex trafficker of young girls. I can’t decide which she is yet, if she too, exists. In 1990, when Tiffany Doe was 22, she attended a series of parties held by Epstein in which she was paid to entertain his guests. Pretty much, she prostituted herself. In 1991, she was promoted from a prostitute to a party planner in which her duties were to get attractive adolescent girls to attend the same parties she prostituted herself at, entertaining Epstein’s guests. Number eleven of her declaration states: “It was my job to personally witness and supervise encounters between the underage girls that Mr. Epstein hired and his guests”. Jane Doe states in the California filed court documents that there have been “scores of teenagers, and pre-teen girls were used as sex slaves by Defendant Epstein and Defendant Trump” at these sex parties. Now, it’s hard to imagine one person being able to witness the interaction between these scores of teenagers and pre-teen girls being sexually assaulted by Epstein and Trump. Apparently, there’s no other guests, thank goodness, otherwise, Tiffany Doe would have a really difficult time trying to be in many places at once. Where are these scores of teenagers and pre-teen girls that were used at sex slaves by Epstein and Trump at these sex parties? Did they all disappear like Maria Doe? Why again was Jane Doe the only one who hasn’t disappeared? And is being paid to willingly attend sex parties really against someone’s will? Afterall, Tiffany Doe admitted to prostituting herself to Epstein and many of his clients before being employed by him into hiring other girls, a decade younger than she was, to attend the same parties entertaining guests with sexual activities.

California doesn’t have the same laws as New York. In New York, it’s considered rape to have sex with anyone under seventeen, even if that sex was consensual. Moving courts from California to New York, Jane Doe specifically states that law because even if she did consent to being paid for sex, as was Tiffany Doe’s job of hiring her for such alleged sex parties, it would make her consent void and therefore, it would be rape under New York Penal Code § 130.05(3)(a). Isn’t this interesting because as a defense, Hillary Clinton said that the rape victim Kathy Shelton was ” emotionally unstable with a tendency to seek out older men and engage in fantasizing” and therefore, was ordered to undergo extensive psychiatric testing at the age of 12 (https://www.scribd.com/doc/229667084/State-of-Arkansas-V-Thomas-Alfred-Taylor). Clinton talked down the pleas from rape to a lesser charge that carried five years, four of which was suspended to probation.

So, there’s this alleged rape lawsuit of a 13 year old against Trump in which everyone wants to shout out how horrible of a person Trump is while Clinton defended the 41 year old rapist of a 12 year old girl and successfully lowered his sentence to a year in prison and no one wants to get upset about that?

Yesterday, I was having a discussion with a friend on Facebook about people being upset on how Trump bragged twelve years ago that because he’s rich and well known, women let him do whatever he wanted with them. The person said people were upset that Trump was outright bragging about sexually assaulting women without their consent. In actuality, Trump specifically said that the women allowed him to do whatever he wanted, so that meant that they did give consent. And that’s pretty much the same thing that is happening here. People want to see what they want to see. And unfortunately, they want to add whatever else they believe according to their own biases against someone that makes things worse than they are.

Finally, my friend said, “I’m actually far more concerned by the fact that Trump seems to be a fraud and an idiot, lacking both even a basic understanding of civics and foreign policy.

I replied with, “I’m concerned with the piles of bodies Hillary Clinton has left in her wake (along with her husband), the many women she’s silenced who have been having some kind of sexual affair with her husband, her incessant wish for a Third World War, nuclear war no less, her ties and financial donations from terrorist countries and companies that would benefit greatly in profit from a war, her mental stability and health, her election fraud, her emails and her lies…so yeah, I’d rather take someone a bit green with no experience than a war hungry, cold and calculating person who will destroy us for profit.

To which my friend conveniently just ignores…like how everyone else seems to ignore all the ugly and bad about Clinton and still want to vote for her anyway. If people’s only concerns about Trump being unfit for President because he’s a narcissistic asshole who likes to brag about how he can get any woman he wants because he’s rich and famous and who isn’t well versed in civics and foreign policy, then hell, I would rather take that narcissistic asshole who likes to brag about how he can get any woman he wants because he’s rich and famous and who isn’t well versed in civics and foreign policy over a calculated, greedy, murderous, warmongering, lying, cheating, corrupt asshole whose only good virtue is that she has a vagina and we’ve never had a vagina for President. Besides, the President has an entire cabinet of advisors who can help him or her make decisions. That’s their job and that’s why they’re there. The President doesn’t need to be a know-it-all. Neither Trump nor Clinton knows it all and that’s okay. But why really, do people hate Trump so much even if Hillary is basically the devil in disguise?

Trump is racist. Yeah, so is every single person in the world. We’re all racist against something, against someone, against a crap ton of things. I’m really racist against humans because there’s not enough zombies out there eating their brains. Stupid humans. Still, Trump wants to build a wall and limit illegal immigration and that suddenly makes him racist against Hispanics. There’s millions and millions of illegal immigrants in the United States. My mother believes Trump wants to kick out every person of color and leave all white people, which is why she hates him and which is also not true at all. Many people, like my mother, due to personal biases passing around and misinformation, believes that Trump will try to deport every person of color who is illegal, a resident, and even a citizen. Because of misinformation and fear, they hate him. Also ignorance. There is so much ignorance that goes into hating Trump. Most people don’t care enough to learn anything about him more than from the snippets of biased news and media they hear or see or memes on Facebook that they read. Yeah, he’s a jerk, they all concluded. But hey assholes, we’re all jerks, period. And maybe that, that realization that we’re all assholes is what doesn’t sit with people comfortably about Trump. He doesn’t care for the bullshit facade that people pretend they are. He doesn’t care to pretend to be someone he’s not. He’s real, like you and me. Trump makes people uncomfortable because in Trump, people see the shitty person they are, the one they hide from the public view, and they can’t live with themselves knowing they are indeed assholes. Jesus Christ, people. It’s okay to be an asshole. It’s okay to be human.

People say that Trump is the epitome of hatred. I find it funny that these same people are hating on Trump. I have never seen so many hate posts about someone that people don’t even know and most blatantly say they don’t care to know, they simply hate him. I’ve seen people talk about how racist Trump is and how he kicks people of color out of his rallies. One thing that all these people fail to mention is how the people that Trump kicked out of his rallies are protestors. No one talks about how wrong it is for Black Lives Matter folks to interrupt peaceful gatherings and even take the mic from presenters to start spouting their message, but Trump is racist because he kicks out protestors at his own rallies? People are fucking idiots. Calling someone a racist because they don’t agree with you doesn’t make them a racist. Trump isn’t racist because he throws out black kids shouting Black Lives Matter or people using profanity at his rallies. He has a right to a peaceful gathering without assholes trying to infringe on his right. And it’s absolutely that: assholes wanting to infringe on other people’s rights.

Everyone is an asshole. They can pretend not to be. The 30 black students all dressed in black at the Trump rally in Valdosta, Georgia were protestors and by right, should be kicked out. I don’t feel pity that they were kicked out. I don’t give a damn about the color of their skin. Their purpose was clear, to protest.

Some time ago, a Black Lives Matter co-founder was demanding that all cops be removed from black neighborhoods. I was tired of the fake racism bullshit, so I posted on Facebook saying that we should give them what they want, that we should take all cops out of black neighborhoods, and let black people kill themselves. It is a statistical fact that the majority of black people die from homicide and that the majority of homicides in black communities are committed by other black people. What the Black Lives Matter co-founder was asking was essentially, death to all black people. Of course, people got upset. I was called a racist. And no matter how I explained it and no matter what facts I pointed them to, I was just a mean, horrible racist person who wanted all black people dead. I didn’t even say I wanted black people dead. I said they can kill themselves. Big difference. And yes, they will die if all cops are taken out of black neighborhoods because cops are the ones that are actually saving black lives.

Three people unfriended me and because I actually did care about them at one point in time, it hurt me. I was wondering why they couldn’t see that the majority of black deaths is caused by violence from other black people. They only saw that white people killed black people. Black people killed black people, but of course that didn’t matter because it had to be racism that killed black people, not black people killing each other. And it’s this ignorance and blatant stupidity of refusing to believe that black are racist and Black Lives Matter is a racist hate group that produces fucking idiots like the people who unfriended me. I wasn’t shouting slogans of killing black people. I wasn’t destroying property, rioting in the streets, interrupting other people’s daily businesses, stopping traffic, aggressively and even violently protesting at peaceful gatherings, trying to burn black people alive, ordering that black people should be killed, hanged, and the picture posted to Twitter or some social media outlet…I wasn’t doing any of these things. Black people were doing these things against white people, but everyone else is racist? I utterly hate the bullshit racism lie. There is no systematic or institutional racism in America. There is no white privilege. If anything, white people are being systematically and institutionally discriminated against, by law, in favor of black people and minorities. Yet, black people cannot be racist. Black people can act like criminals and because they’re black, it’s racist if they’re jailed. I utterly hate this bullshit racism propaganda that does not exist.

And it does not exist because if black people were ever at a disadvantage because of their skin color, then we wouldn’t have a black president or black congress members or rich black people or black doctors or black justices or black cops or black governors and black mayors and BET. Yeah, BET. Of course the Oscars can be racist because there’s white people there, but BET can’t be racist because it’s full of black people and black people by their own skin color, can’t be racist? Fucking come on, ignorant and stupid people! Everyone is such a fucking asshole, I absolutely hate how people want to try and pretend they’re not like Trump when they are exactly like Trump except Trump doesn’t give a shit about being an asshole. He doesn’t play the fucking victim card or the vagina card or the race card or whatever fucking card assholes play to get everyone else to feel sorry for them. I’m a fucking asshole and I keep telling people that. It’s amazing that people keep fucking ignoring me and pretend to be surprised when I don’t fall in line with the media bullshit racist we hate all white people and we love all black people even if they’re fucking acting like crazy assholes. Yeah, I don’t give a shit about someone’s skin color. Be real. Don’t fucking play me for empathy. Don’t fucking pretend you’re owed free shit for things that happened hundreds of years ago to not you, and fucking be responsible and own up to your shit. I hate the racism bullshit lie and I will gladly be fucking racist against every stupid human being because they are fucking stupid and stupid does not help advance any species.

So anyways, got off topic there, but that’s my rant. To all you Trump haters who pretend like you’re not a hater, go look in a mirror because you are so totally hating for no reason other than snippets of media lies and crap you see on Facebook. To all the people who pretend that they’re not racist assholes, go look in a mirror because you are totally racist and an asshole. Own up to it. Fucking be you, whoever horrible, awful person you are, and be loud and proud of it. And that is why people hate Trump, because they are as ugly and hateful and racist as they say he is. They just don’t want to admit it because unlike Trump who has always been his asshole self, they are still pretending they’re the good guys. There are no fucking good guys. Remember, superheroes do not exist.

 
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How the Mid-Season Finale of Supernatural Made Me Cry

For anyone who has kept up with the tv series, Supernatural, the story of Sam and Dean has spanned eleven seasons. We’ve seen the boys hunt monsters and save people. We’ve seen the hell the boys have been through from not being able to save the people they set out to help to losing the people they love. And all the while, there was this hope that there was an endgame, that everything will be ok.

There are spoilers, so if someone’s not caught up to date or anything, please don’t read forward. If you do continue reading, consider yourself duly warned.

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Sam had been having visions from God every time he prayed. There was even a burning bush, like in the Bible. The visions were telling him that he had to return to the cage with Lucifer. And once there, he would find the answer to getting rid of the Darkness. Sam and Dean screwed up even bigger than normal. They let the Darkness out and now, she’s collecting the souls of mankind and growing stronger with each intake. Sam holds on to the hope that God is still here, that God is still watching and more importantly, that God still cares.

During the mid-season finale, Sam teams up with the King of Hell, Crowley, and his witch mother, Rowena, in a desperate move to call up Lucifer from the cage. Lucifer would know how God locked up the Darkness to begin with. Things obviously went wrong and Lucifer traps Sam in the cage with him. Rowena’s wards on the cage had worn off or something so Lucifer took Sam and wants to test out Sam’s meat suit – to possess him and walk the earth.

Sam still held on to the hope that God had a plan, that God was leading Sam to Lucifer’s cage, and that he was ready to do anything to save billions of lives, even to go back and stay in that cage forever. With Sam in the cage and Rowena’s wards no longer effective, Lucifer taunts Sam with the truth.

Lucifer: “Hey, Sam Winchester, you miss me? I bet you did.” [ Inhales deeply, exhales slowly ] “I have to say, you’re — you’re extraordinarily calm given the circumstances.”

Sam: “It’s pretty much exactly how God told me it was gonna be. Guess I just have to go with it and play my hand.”

Lucifer: [ Clicks tongue ] “And that would make so much sense if it was God that was doing the talking. You see, Sam, when the Darkness descended, the impact on Hell was massive. The cage was damaged. Through the fissures, I was able to reach out. It wasn’t God inside your head, Sam. It was me. So you see, he’s not with you. He’s never been with you. It was always just Me.”

I don’t know to how many people those words hit home. It hit real life. It hit our lives. “It wasn’t God inside your head. It was me. So you see, he’s not with you. He’s never been with you. It was always just me.” For me, those words summed up my entire life, even to today, and even to right now. It was never God inside my head. He’s not with me. He’s never been.

When I was incarcerated, I had a friend named Rachel. They took her mother to the segregated housing unit, the SHU, and every day at lunch, she would go jump on the the window sill to knock on the glass and talk to her mom. The first time was insane because she had to scream and figure out which cell her mom was in. And I worried she’d get caught and get thrown in there as well. So every day I would pray that she never got caught. Talking to people in the SHU wasn’t allowed. You get thrown in the SHU far away from whoever it was that you wanted to speak with. It was a spectacle at lunch every day for two weeks before they shipped her mom off and she never once got caught. And one day, I told her about how much I prayed that she wasn’t caught so she didn’t have to spend time in there. I told her that my prayers were answered because she never got into trouble for disobeying the rules. However, at the end of that conversation, I said to her that, “If all my prayers were answered the way I wanted them to be answered, then it may not have been God who answered them.” And I didn’t understand why I said that. I was always just a strange one. But it makes sense now. If all your prayers are always answered, it isn’t always God who is answering your prayers. And that’s exactly what Lucifer revealed to Sam.

I’m sitting here, alone in the dark, dog sitting my sister’s three dogs while she’s away for the weekend. I’m afraid of the dark. I’m terrified of dead things. And I have a strange phobia of zombies. It seems silly that I have so many fears, but I just finished watching a really bad movie on what I thought was going to be an exorcism. It was more or less, a botched production full of incredible actors. So am I still not afraid?

Fear comes and goes. I’ve really been with the dark for so long that I’m not even sure what I would be afraid of anymore. They’re just normal, every day things to me now. Sure, I can scare myself, think about something creepy hiding in a dark corner somewhere, but for the most part, I’m a bit beyond being afraid. It’s almost this strange familiarity, like family, and how you could have a horrific and violent family, but that part is irrelevant because it’s family.

Where is God?

I can’t speak for anyone else, but only for myself. I don’t have playtime with the dark and dark things because I actually like that kind of stuff or because I enjoy those kinds of things. It’s so easy to be wicked, to be mean and terrible to others, to plot evil and abuse everyone. Is that what I want, what I am? No. Somewhere, there’s a child that takes a step into the dark, unable to reach the light because they’re not tall enough, but walking forward and deeper into darkness, they can’t see anything behind them. Are their parents still right there following them? Why can’t a grown up just reach up and turn on the light? Why is it so dark? What’s the point of tripping over things in the darkness, of getting lost and scared and being lonely? Walk long enough, and eventually, you realize there’s no one behind you. No one following you. God is supposed to be everywhere. And still, He’s nowhere to be found.

Do you see me if I cut myself a hundred times? Can you hear me if I scream your name in your holy temple until my voice is gone? Will you see me if I cover your alter in the blood of your faithful followers? What can I do to get your attention? What can I do to have you take notice and answer me?

What are these feelings? All this destruction. Is it hatred? Is it malice? Is it anger? Is it jealousy? Is it vengeance? No. It’s pain. Pure and simple, it’s pain. People in pain. People wanting and hoping for something greater than themselves, and then coming to find out like Sam that there was never any hope. It didn’t exist. Sure, God exists, but He was never with us. He’s not with us. And that’s the saddest thing of all, to hope and see that that hope was nothing. That there was nothing.

 
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The Queen of Heaven

In my dreams, there’s always a “queen of heaven”. Please note that all my dreams are horrific recurring nightmares. This has been a constant long before I accepted Christ. That’s not the point. The point is, in my awful and painful recurring nightmares, there’s a very evil and wicked woman who claims to be the queen of heaven.

Now, there’s hardly any logical thought in dreams and during lucid dreaming, there’s a slim chance that I am able to rationalize all the impossible things happening around me and to me as not being real. Pain, however, drives away all thoughts. When you’re being tortured in gruesome ways, your mind tends to disassociate. Everything stops and gets blocked out. You float a bit out of your dream body, much like you would in real life if that happened to you, and you become a spectator on the grotesque event happening to you.

I’m not strong so I run, as much as I can, which always happens to be in painfully slow motion. I’ve gone to extreme lengths to get away, inasmuch as harming myself to wake up. It’s a lucid dream so the knowledge that I’m dreaming is there, although the fear is overwhelming to the point of panic. It’s like being a caged animal. Your senses are cranked on ultra sensitivity alert. Adrenaline pumps through your veins like steroids. You’re simply just frantic and mad, doing anything and everything to get out, to wake up, to leave.

This queen of heaven watches in amusement because she haunts me and tortures me and knows that I must sleep some time, some day. I avoid her as much as I can. I avoid even the thought of her. In my dreams, all the churches are corrupted. There’s a blue book, a bible, dedicated to the queen of heaven. Churches are filled with more demons and monsters than actual people, of which I’ve never seen a real Christian in my dreams, ever.

Because of the nature of my dreams, I used to roam occult sites looking for answers. I wasn’t a Christian. I avoided Christianity. God didn’t help the nightmares. Demons in my dreams found the name Jesus to be funny. And they’d torture me more for foolishly believing that anyone or anything could help me.

New age. Metaphysical. Pagan. Occult. Kabbalah. Catholic. It’s all the same thing wrapped up in a pretty bow.

I used to not sleep out of fear. I’d stay awake with as many creepy things haunting my waking moments as they do when I’m asleep. I’m afraid of the dark for a reason. I’m afraid to be alone for a reason. I was conditioned to fear.

I pushed it all aside. Disassociated it. Pretended that it doesn’t happen. Pretended that I am safe. If I continued pretending enough, then it fades. It trickles slowly into the background, like a camera which focuses on one thing and blurs everything else out until it’s no longer there. That was the solution to my waking life, in order to have any semblance of a normal life, I disassociated the trauma, the fear, and the supernatural elsewhere. I don’t even know where now. But what about my dreams? That’s something I haven’t been able to figure out or fix yet.

I’ve come to the realization that evil exists in this world in an overwhelming capacity. Wickedness works in high places and infiltrates even into our own houses. Yep. It’s right under our noses, staring us in the face.

One of the groups I’m in on Facebook deals with magic. Their goddess is the most terrifying creepy woman ever. “Draw this sigil. Invite her into your dreams. She’s scary at first, but she gives you power and she’ll help.”

What? She’s frightening, but she’s really a cuddly teddy bear?

I never tried it. I have too many creepy women running around in my dreams already, I didn’t need another one with the thoughts of others feeding into some entity that would invade my already unbearable dreams. Who does that? I already instinctively flee from some queen of heaven creature. I didn’t need a queen of the webs to trap me in her webs. How do you even trust something that wants to kill you? It’s insanity.

For fame? For power? For the ability to say that you know magic and nothing can harm you? I don’t understand how people would enslave themselves to entities and demons and such when I’m trying to break free. Nothing, no amount of wealth or power or control would ever make me want to be a part of that or of any other like that. I am human. I will die. And so will the most powerful and the wealthiest person alive on this earth. We are mortals and we will die. And I will at least not die a slave to a beast.

The world is corrupted and corruption is right in our faces, taunting our inability to see it and to understand it.

I find it interesting that people don’t believe in the Bible. They don’t believe in God or in Jesus. Yet, they surely do know all the symbols of the devil. Wake up. All these symbols, all these gestures, all these horns and goats’ heads are not pop culture. They are not what’s cool right now. There’s an agenda behind everything. These images, these references, all these things desensitize people to evil, to the devil, to what’s bad and what’s wrong. It prepares people to be accepting of a master who requires terrifying you, humiliating you, and stripping down every last bit of humanity in you in order to make you a vessel for his own people, for demons.

People of every other religion but Christianity, and many who claim to be Christians, are using demonic symbols and gestures. But why? Surely they don’t believe in the devil because he’s a made up part of a made up religion called Christianity, right?

It boggles my mind, the sheer volume of misinformation and deception people allow themselves to believe, the ignorance of generations too entitled to freedom to realize they’re all slaves.

To see the world for what it is, to see the truth for what it is, maybe it’s so evil and corrupted that people have to disassociate themselves from it like I have to do with my dreams.

God is not a woman. God is not transgender. There is no queen of heaven. People can argue immortal gender issues all they want, as if they should know because they’ve got the inside scoop from so called experts and scientists and whomever or they’re really an immortal or whatever, but that’s the truth and it isn’t going to change. People, in their ignorance, helps to accomplish the agendas of those seeking to control and eliminate you. The world is full of wickedness. Learn the truth and wake up. I need to wake up again and stay awake.

 
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How People Who Want to Exaggerate How Torturous Prison is is Keeping Jan Marcusse Behind Bars

What pisses me off is all this cry wolf stories about how prisons are specifically discriminating against the LBGT community, which isn’t even true, is that everyone will believe it and not focus on the real questions we should be asking like why prisons are instituted in the first place, and why so many people go to prison or have extremely lengthy sentences, and why completely innocent people are behind bars today. The only people who actually might enjoy prison, would be people from the LBGT community. So many women running around with their girlfriends and so much drama because of their girlfriends. And so many women to be a girlfriend.

Anyone who knows me will know that I don’t give a damn about people’s sexual preferences. It only becomes my business when it’s constantly being flaunted in my face. And all these misleading lies about how prisons are specifically discriminating against the LBGT community and goes out of their way to torture individuals based on their sexual preference is utter falsehood. It’s people like that who try their best to lie about the truth so they can come out the hero who keeps innocent people like Janet Marcusse still locked up behind bars.

Gloria-Goodwin Killian is an advocate of women behind bars. Unlike some other self-called advocates that I know, Gloria actually does help women who are incarcerated. Gloria herself was released from prison after serving 16 years out of the 32-to life sentence that she was given for a crime that she didn’t commit. Her site, the Action Committee For Women in Prison advocates for the humane, compassionate treatment of all women behind bars. ( https://acwip.wordpress.com/who-we-are/ )

Now, this was supposed to be my happy day of playing Sims 4, but instead, I get to deal with ignorant people like below. Since it’s a post shared publicly on Facebook, it will be shared publicly here on my blog as well. It’s not the first time and it will surely not be the last time I have to deal with people of that nature.

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This is what it feels like to be in prison

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  • Laura Ramirez Makes me cry even more for my daughter! When will this nightmare end?

     

  • Xao Thao That’s unrealistic. You paint a picture of prison that looks like a horrible tragedy to get sympathy from others. It’s the same as people painting pictures of prisons as some wonderful rehabilitation place to get continued support for it when it’s not that either. It just is.
  • Gigi Gonzalez wow, when was this picture taken and in what country?
  • Vita Lusty Xao, fuck you.
  • Gigi Gonzalez @ Vita Lusty, I wanted to say that but I don’t think she meant what we first read. Anyway, I feel your pain.
  • Vita Lusty HAHA. It sounds like she is attacking Gloria for using a picture that portrays how she feels. If I misunderstood, I will delete the comment.
  • Xao Thao I wasn’t attacking anyone unlike the hostility Vita showed. I’m saying that it’s not realistic to portray anything in exaggeration no matter what your personal opinions of it is. It’s ignorant people who attack others. For a lack of knowledge is corruption multiplying.
  • Vita Lusty Yeah yeah, speaking with emotion and vigor is seen as ignorant. I heard that on a rape thread earlier this week when men couldn’t believe rape statistics. Emotion binds us. Gloria has every right to use a photo that depicts her feelings. Art serves that purpose.
  • Xao Thao Art serves many purposes. People can be passionate about something and advocate and fight for what they believe is right and that’s a wonderful thing. You’re defensive because you feel like I was attacking Gloria and her use of art to portray her emotions. Perhaps you have a lot of emotions about prison. If you actually read what I said, I didn’t attack anyone. Neither was I telling Gloria not to express herself. And neither have I said that Speaking with vigor and emotion is ignorance. I made a statement about the over exaggeration of subjects and topics that lead to wide misunderstandings of those subjects and topics. I said that it’s ignorant people who attack others. No matter what your defensive is, I don’t care about it because you don’t know me. Neither should you take personal offense to what I say because I don’t know you. You bring up rape as if you want me to feel sympathetic for the statistics that men do indeed get raped as well. I don’t let my emotions or what I feel make hasty decisions that I might regret later. A good balance between passion and understanding helps us to think for ourselves and not be led by other factors or other people who can too easily influence our lives.
  • Vita Lusty Sure. That is diplomatic. Sure men get raped too, of course including everyone on all issues tends to stall movement. It is like saying white people get shot too. Statistics in both cases identify a huge difference of numbers. It is better that we look at each case with a critical eye, not just a diplomatic one. As for the rest of it, I have strong feelings about prison and very strong feelings about voices stifled by opinion and criticism.
  • Xao Thao Im glad you’re out spoken. It’s good to have people fighting for those who can’t, and especially those who can’t fight because they’re stuck in the system. The world doesn’t need people attacking each other. What it needs is people who can stick together no matter what those bonds are that holds them. Diplomacy is needed for many things including being heard and taken seriously for your cause. I was given a letter once by an inmate who wanted me to publish a story in which every other word consists of the word “fuck”. Although I understood their great emotions for what was was going on and where they were at and the injustice they felt, derogatory use of language simply makes them seem uneducated and not serious to others. There was no media source that was going to print a story like that. And the same with people. It’s diplomacy that makes you sound serious to others, even if inside, you want to scream out a blazing trail of obscenities.
  • Vita Lusty There is a time and place for both. I cherish many other writers who use obscenities. Power words. Claiming “fuck” comes from uneducated mouths is outdated. Every other word … Well, yeah. That won’t read well. Either way, I am just protecting Gloria and her voice. She has been through hell. She deserves all the time to speak she wants or needs.
  • Xao Thao I’m certainly not stopping her. More people should speak, but more importantly, more people should speak truthfully. I’ve seen too many make up lies in order to gain sympathy for their ordeals. Prison is bad, but it’s not as torturous as most makes it seem. There are real issues that get lost in the midst of other people wanting their fifteen minutes of fame. I’d like for the real issues to be heard.
  • Xao Thao Derogatory language in the sense that it’s used every other word does make someone seem uneducated. I didn’t claim that only uneducated people curse. Neither did I claim that cursing makes one uneducated. Don’t read in between the lines because there’s nothing to to be read there. I’m pretty straight forward with what I say.
  • Vita Lusty I am not reading between the lines, you just seem wishy washy.
  • Xao Thao And you try to put words in my mouth that aren’t there. No harm done. I know what I said because I can say it again.
  • Vita Lusty It isn’t my intention to hijack this thread and talking around issues without ever really addressing them is a bore. Nothing comes out of it but an image you seek to maintain about yourself. Safe. Democratic. Inoffensive. And with no real point at all.
  • Xao Thao I apologize for hijacking this thread to explain. I don’t care about my image. You misunderstood my comment and I explained it. You misunderstood a lot more so I explained that too. I made more valid points than your “fuck you” ever did. Now you know. Our conversation can stop here because anything else you don’t understand, you can say so in IM if you really want to know.
  • Vita Lusty I don’t. Thanks.

 

 
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Why Innocent People Like Janet Marcusse is Still Incarcerated After a Decade of Fighting for Her Freedom

Janet Marcusse is 58 years old and has spent the past decade fighting for her freedom behind federal prison walls after being falsely incarcerated, slandered, and sentenced to 25 years behind bars for a crime she didn’t commit.

Federal Prosecutors initially charged her with a “Ponzi scheme” in 2004, then switched their allegations when they were caught lying about the $7.5 million in investments to honest services fraud in which corrupt federal judge Robert Holmes Bell changed the jury instructions to advise that the government didn’t need to prove the defendants obtained any money or property or that anyone lost any money or property, basically uprooting the government’s burden to actually substantiate any evidence of the alleged crime.

After the jury voted “guilty” on the new charge, prosecutors resurrected their old, abandoned “Ponzi scheme” charge for sentencing and appeal, now lying that it was the jury who determined the Ponzi scheme to be a “fact” when the jury voted according to federal judge Bell’s jury changed instructions. Jan was given a 25-year sentence based on losses caused by others, making it an illegal sentence.

While the Sixth Circuit Court of Appeals granted permission for Jan to file a pro se brief on her own behalf, Judges William Bertelsman, Jeffrey Sutton, and John Rogers ignored it in their 2008 decision in order to agree with prosecutors the jury found a “Ponzi scheme”. When Jan challenged the decision, the panel attested her issues had been “fully considered”, causing her “convictions” to be made “final”. When Jan challenged the panel in a petition for recall of the mandate for attorney and judicial fraud, they admitted they had “declined” to consider her issues, but refused to do anything about it.

In March, 2011, in response to Jan’s collateral attack petition under §2255, Judge Bell reversed course and held “a ‘Ponzi scheme’ was not an element of any charges brought”. Judge Bell has also refused to allow Jan’s innocence claim to even be filed, as based on the previously unavailable evidence obtained from the Dept. of Justice proving IRS Agent James Flink committed perjury over at least $9 million at trial, and as based on a new Supreme Court decision repudiating the charge as amended in the jury instructions to honest services fraud.

On June 17, 2011, Michigan Gov. Rick Snyder appointed Michael Schipper as a judge for his part in successfully prosecuting this case, describing it as a “Ponzi scheme”.

On January 9, 2013, the evidence was obtained in FOIA litigation to prove a criminal fraudulent scheme was concocted at trial in which prosecutors, IRS agents, Judge Bell and defense counsel all colluded in the deliberate spoliation of Jan’s bank record evidence. They allowed her access to original bank record documents and even provided copies, except then objected to the use of these copies as defense evidence at trial as not in the bulk bank record exhibits by having removed the original documents and replaced them with the records supplied from the banks under subpoena.

The original bank records had been stolen from Jan by co-defendants Wesley and Diane Boss to conceal the evidence of their embezzlement of $1.5 million and given to the IRS. During the trial, however, prosecutors stacked the bulk bank record exhibits in boxes in front of the jury box, but first removed the original documents from them, leaving only the similar content documents provided under subpoena by the banks in the exhibits–documents to which Jan was not allowed access–a scheme which they believed allowed them to object every time Jan wanted to submit any of her copies as defense evidence as not from the bulk exhibits, acting as if she must have fabricated her evidence. This constitutes criminal activity in violation of 18 USC §§ 2,3, 2071 and 26 USC § 7214.

More information on Janet Marcusse can be found here: http://www.ipiw.com

It’s because of reasons like this MSNBC article that Janet cannot get out of prison. The media only cares about things like Kim Kardashian’s butt or someone bashing a gay person. Everyone wants to jump in and help defend false freedoms of people’s lifestyles, why not defend something or someone worth defending? Obviously, many people’s lifestyles aren’t going to be accepted.

No offense to the entire LGBT community, but unless there’s ANY truth in the lies that were told in this article by the only non-transgender female quoted, then there’s no point in the advocacy of a more wicked society in which both the government and its people are corrupted. Those who have been at Tallahassee long enough to know how it works there will know that the very last sentence in this article is the biggest lie of all. There is no “ghetto” in Tallahassee and Tallahassee was where she spent the rest of her sentence until she was released months ago.

What aggravates me is that narcissistic arrogant selfish people can get the media to believe in their lies, but I can’t get one news station, even fake news, to write an article on Jan’s false incarceration with the mountain of evidence from court documents and tax court wins and transcripts and actual facts. But one day, she will be free. No thanks to all the people who try so hard to keep her there.

Here is the article link and the actual full article below. And if anyone is interested, below all this is my email reply to the ignorant reporter who wrote this article.

http://www.msnbc.com/msnbc/lgbt-prisoners-abuse

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Does the LGBT movement ignore inmates?
11/14/14 09:49 PM By Emma Margolin-emma.margolin@nbcuni.com

More than 20 years have passed since the Supreme Court ruled in Farmer v. Brennan that prisoners could hold prison officials accountable for “deliberate indifference” to their safety. The landmark decision, issued on June 6, 1994, affirmed a constitutional responsibility on the part of custodial officials to protect those in their custody.

Today, however, LGBT inmates – particularly transgender women of color – experience harassment, discrimination, and violence while incarcerated, as well as alarming rates of being sucked into the criminal justice system. Prisoners’ rights advocates claim that the mainstream LGBT movement, now riding high on an unprecedented streak of victories in recent years, has largely ignored this set of concerns.

On Friday, the Columbia Center for Gender and Sexuality Law held a conference to discuss the legacy of Farmer, the movement to end abuse in detention centers, and the state of health care for LGBT prisoners, among other issues. If there were any positive takeaways to draw from the event, the best that could be said – as one audience member put it – was simply that “it could be worse.”

The negatives, however, were far more resounding.

“We have LGBT people now that’s hurting, hurting now and no action is taking place,” said Troy Isaac, a former juvenile hall and state prison inmate who now works with the group Just Detention International. At 12 years-old, Isaac was raped for being “effeminate” in the shower area of a California juvenile facility. “Staff members never listened to me,” he said.

Thirty-nine percent of gay male inmates said they’d been assaulted by other prisoners in a 2008 Department of Justice report. To compare, 3.5% of heterosexual male prisoners reported being sexually victimized by other inmates.

The statistics grow more grim when talking about transgender prisoners. Sexual assault is 13 times more prevalent among transgender inmates, a 2007 survey of California correctional facilities found, with 59% of transgender respondents reporting instances of sexual assault in detention. By comparison, 4.4% of the general inmate population reported experiencing sexual assault while in a California correctional facility.

Dee Farmer

In 1989, three years into her 20-year federal sentence for credit card fraud, Dee Farmer, a transgender woman, was transferred to a maximum-security penitentiary. Despite dressing as a woman, undergoing estrogen treatments, and having silicone breast implants, Farmer was held in custody in all-male prisons. Days after being transferred to USP-Terre Haute in Indiana, Farmer was raped at knife-point by another prisoner. She then filed a quixotic lawsuit without legal counsel against the Bureau of Prisons director, regional director, and other officials, alleging that they knew she would be sexually assaulted at USP-Terre Haute due to her feminine appearance.

After losing at both the federal district and appellate levels, Farmer successfully petitioned the Supreme Court for review.

“I really, really didn’t think I had a chance of getting approved,” said Farmer, who is currently incarcerated in a West Virginia federal prison, during a November interview with Just Detention International and the ACLU. In 1994, the Supreme Court agreed to hear .5% of cases filed by indigent plaintiffs, according to the human rights groups.

The high court ended up handing down a unanimous victory for Farmer stating that prison officials had a duty under the Eighth Amendment, which prohibits cruel and unusual punishment, to protect prisoners from harm at the hands of other prisoners. In law, “deliberate indifference” occurs when a professional knows of and disregards an excessive risk to an inmate’s health or safety.

“There have been some inmates I met in my journey who have come up and gave me a hug,” said Farmer in the phone interview that organizers played at the beginning of Friday’s conference. However, she said, “the struggle for transgenderism is still very much alive and very much in need.”

For starters, transgender individuals, especially non-white women, find themselves wrapped up in the criminal justice system at disproportionate rates. In the 2011 National Transgender Discrimination Survey, 47% of black transgender respondents said they had been incarcerated “for any reason,” compared to 8.9% of the general black population.

That result is due in large part to factors that put LGBT individuals at risk of being arrested before they even reach adulthood. Data shows LGBT youth are overrepresented in the nation’s homeless population, having left home in many cases because their families didn’t accept them. Once on the street, they’re exposed to myriad dangers, including violence, sex work, and incarceration.

CeCe McDonald

Such was the experience of transgender folk hero CeCe McDonald, who, after surviving homelessness, prostitution, and one near fatal transphobic attack, served 28 months behind bars for second-degree manslaughter, a charge to which she pleaded guilty. At 23 years-old in 2011, McDonald stabbed and killed a man after he and his friends verbally and physically assaulted her.

“I ended up defending myself,” McDonald recalled on Friday, her normally ebullient voice raspy with a cold. “Of course the system did not allow me to flourish in a way where I could successfully go through the trial and actually win.”

Faced with up to 40 years for second-degree murder, McDonald pleaded guilty to a lesser charge that carried a 41-month sentence in a state men’s prison. Though the only LGBT person in her prison pod, McDonald said she was far more concerned about what the prison staff would do to her. “The reality is that staff and people who work there are more than likely to attack you,” said McDonald. “Knowing that put me on a different level of paranoia when I was in prison.”

In an attempt to hold prison officials accountable to their duties under Farmer, Congress passed the Prison Rape Elimination Act (PREA) in 2003. From that law grew a set of standards designed to eliminate sexual abuse in prison. But critics denounce the PREA regulations as far too soft on prison officials who assault inmates. “PREA is a joke,” exclaimed Evie Litwok, president of Ex-Offender Nation, during Friday’s conference. “These men could never get laid in the free world to the extent that they’re getting laid in prison,” she said of male staffers working in female jails.

Prisoners’ rights advocates have called for greater transparency within jail facilities – in particular, more cameras. They’ve also implored members of the mainstream LGBT equality movement to strengthen their connection with inmates, through advocacy or, more simply, through writing letters. They stress, however, that the only way to truly reduce the rate of prisoner abuse is to reduce the rate of mass incarceration.

“It’s hard to figure out how to work with people who have caused an enormous amount of harm, but we’re already living with them,” said the Rev. Jason Lydon, founding director of the group Black and Pink. “The rate of homicides being solved are low … Domestic violence goes on and on without police being involved. We’re already living with people causing enormous amount of harm, and prisons aren’t fixing that.”

Short of rape, there are a number of other ways in which inmates face abuse. Litwok, 63, has served a total of 20 months in federal prison for tax evasion. When she first arrived in 2009, she immediately came out as a lesbian – a move she believes subjected her to “harassment, torture, and sadism.”

Inmate.com got the word around immediately,” said Litwok to msnbc during a lunch break. “It’s like old-school telephone. That’s how we get our news.”

Within two weeks of her prison stay, the manager of Litwok’s quiet orientation unit accused her of groping other women.

“I got angry immediately because I hadn’t been involved with anybody for over ten years because of my case,” said Litwok. “I told her I wanted to see the women who accused me of that now.”

No such women were presented. Instead, Litwok was transferred to a different unit known as “The Ghetto,” the loudest most unpleasant area.

“In front of ‘The Ghetto,’ there are 20 beds for punishment called ‘The Bus Stop,” said Litwok. “You sleep under 24-hour, seven-day-a-week florescent lights that don’t go off, and you sleep next to an ice machine that crushes ice every 20 minutes. On either side of you are the bathrooms, which 150 women use … It may not be waterboarding, but it’s torture.”

Litwok stayed there for the rest of her sentence.

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Dear Emma,

I understand your advocacy for the LGBT movement and equality for that community, but your article on LGBT inmates is largely incorrect. Do you not research as a reporter to uncover the truth instead of simply believing someone who told you something?

It all sounds very much like the criminal justice system, where hearsay can incarcerate an individual with no evidence and no substantial proof of any kind for years and a decade more for conspiracy of which the person doesn’t even know they’re committing conspiracy. The true conspiracy is the lies that the government’s witnesses have told, and in this case, perhaps your faulty sources. It’s sad that people are so blinded with ridiculous notions that it’s them against the world and that anyone who isn’t like them is against them, therein the cause of corruption and evil in this world that many will suffer for the selfishness of others.

Why not then do an actual article on how many people are incarcerated innocently? There are far greater numbers of people incarcerated that should never have been there in the first place, the majority of which are still behind bars today. And no one speaks for them because in today’s society of Hollywood and self-made reality tv stars, it’s more important to discuss whether someone’s butt is too big or whether spikes should be erected under bridges and highways to deter the homeless.

That last one aggravates me because, where does someone who has a place to sleep at night with a warm bed, a comfy blanket, and a nice home ever think of where a homeless person would go if not under bridges and along park benches when the shelters are too full. It would’ve been a better use of government resources to erect more shelters to help the homeless instead of harm them by erecting spikes so that they have nowhere to lay their head. And much like the homeless, falsely incarcerated people exist and will not simply go away if we turn the other eye and pretend not to notice.

There are innocent people in prison fighting to get out and not even the media or any reporters who still seek actual truth will listen, not even with the overwhelming evidence of corrupted federal judges, prosecutors, and civil court wins would help set someone free. Yet, everyone wants to hop on the gravy train of fighting for false freedoms in a bound and slave system worse than any third world country in the world, and no one wants to touch base on the corruption of the people who are here to serve and protect us, the very same ones who throw us behind lock and key to fatten their paychecks and please their own conceited egos of how many they can throw into America’s slave labor system.

If I was in the position to be a reporter, I’d at least fight for something worth fighting for: ivory poaching which kills and drives rhinos and elephants towards extinction, rhinos particularly; deforestation which is humanity destroying itself slowly; and people who can’t speak for themselves because the world is so corrupt that unless we’re just like them, there’s no chance for us who don’t belong to live in it.

But this is the modern age, isn’t it? And the age of technology and computers. Everyone has a Facebook and a Twitter and YouTube and followers. Perhaps one day, no thanks to all the ones who try so hard in hiding up the truth and their own wickedness, will there be a real freedom for everyone, and not simply because everyone wants to throw in their own perspective lifestyle or decisions, but a real freedom with a transparent government who is for the people instead of for themselves while riding on the backs of the people.

Have a good night.

Sincerely,
Xao Thao

 
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